David drives his branded van around town
giving doggies their dinners. They sit on driveways
wagging their tails like hands at David
as he pulls up with his doggie dinners.
He has letterheads and business cards
with the words David’s Doggie Dinners
printed on them. He wears a cap with David’s
Doggie Dinners on it and a pair of shorts
embroidered with DDD. He has a folder on
his bookshelf with My Sweet Davie’s
Dog-Dog Din- Dins scribbled on
with a Sharpie and a failed
edible toilet roll product with his logo emblazoned.
The owners of the dogs never thank David
for their doggie’s dinners and he drives home
with a packet of chips from a shop called
King’s Chippy for his wife and daughter
who barely see him.

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They’re chatting about rivets
and hacksaws and my testicles
have disappeared. I’m sitting
on a wonky pub chair
hoping it will break.
I punched my bedroom door
once – the tiny dent lives
in my knuckles and brain
and I’ve never learned
how to put up a shelf.

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I’ll write you a poem one day
with the honesty of Guy Garvey.
I’ll talk about how I will add milk
and butter to your potato face
and mash it with my fist or elbow
and you will look better than ever.
I’ll think about tripping you up
in the corridor with my ill-fitting shoes
and watching you front flip and landing on yours.
I’m not superstitious but if I can get
my heart through this day then
you’ll wake up again.

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You bend
a back
a quarter
of mine
to pick
up dead
conkers
in the
park we
share
and fake
moan
to sound
like a man
you think
you want
to be.

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Her jumper says
she’s a part of the Caffeine Club.
A man with no ring on his finger will walk
over in unscuffed Nike Air trainers to ask her,
What’s the first rule of Caffeine Club?
She will take the hair out of her eyes,
scan the field for her toddler trying to escape,
stop her baby picking up chewing gum from the floor.
He will repeat the question.
She will say nothing.

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I’ve always opened satsumas
in a way that leaves the skin
shaped like a penis and testicles.
It’s easy and very fun to do.
It doesn’t matter where I am –
at work, at a picnic with my son,
at the wake of a funeral.
I sometimes imagine my skin
being as shiny and orange as a satsuma.
I imagine the job I’d have, the way
my son would look at me,
whose funeral I’d be crying in.
I imagine being held by a concerned hand,
being pierced by two thumbs,
my skin peeled into a shape
to make you smile.

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My grandma is a tin of leek and potato soup.
I would buy one every week when I lived
in Bournemouth – typically on the days
the seaside made Swindon feel further
than the moon, or I was hungover –
because I was never confident enough
to peel potatoes and simmer leeks
in my university hall’s kitchen. I would
heat the green comfort with a microwave
and eat it in my bedroom with a can of lager.
Grandma never saw me drink; I was
just young enough to need a pair of hands
to help me put a plaster on when she died,
years before soup tins had ring pulls. I imagine
the click of the metal opening is grandma
tutting for not making my own.

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The new guy working in the café
doesn’t completely fill the teapots-for-one
with hot water and I don’t know if I should
say anything. There’s a mother sitting
on the blue and green floral sofa by the window.
She’s dipping a double chocolate chip cookie
into her milky coffee telling her toddler
to stop waving his stuffed dog around
because dogs cannot fly. The new guy
just gave the retired bloke I see here
every Tuesday a cheese and tomato toastie
instead of a cheese and ham toastie.
The retired bloke takes a bite
in my direction and says, He’s halfway there.

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The smiling men with no hair are laughing
about Switzerland and euthanasia.
Their pint glasses are empty
and their ring fingers are dead.
They are talking about life
after divorce and going grey
and how their parents have all paid off
their mortgages and spend their days
twiddling their thumbs together at home.
The landlord interrupts, suggests
they should invite their parents for a drink.
Nah, one smiling man with no hair says.
They wouldn’t be caught dead buying a round.

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He’s eating ready salted crisps
because they are plain enough
not to upset his tongue or tummy.
He has dropped down from 5% beer
to a 4% because fun can fly at him
too hard sometimes. He’s sat
by the window, waving at the toddler
who won’t stop staring at his beard.
It’s a reasonably sunny day,
with just the right about of wind –
the kind that picks up litter and makes
standard afternoons feel more magical
than intended.

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