You’re desperate to know the answer
in your high chair opposite the TV.
Bukayo Saka is celebrating an early goal

and I’m thinking, because of the speed
he can travel around the world in one night,
how Santa would be a marauding fullback

or perhaps a holding midfielder
because of his infinite wisdom.
I tell you, actually, he’s quite an old guy

so realistically he’d be a third choice goalkeeper
but you are singing a song to your broccoli.

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You sleep with a face
that hates not being awake.
Your eyelids shift
left and right like the jaw
of someone trying
to cool a hot chip down
in their mouth.
You float on daytime tarmac
like a shark who cannot rest.

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She admires the care and attention
people pay to something they love,
the patience, imagination, and skill
it takes to help dying greatness
have moments of polished joy.
The nurses arrive on Thursdays
for her to watch the show
with a cup of dairy free tea
and take a break from her craft.

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The vending machine is
any day of the year,
no packets of pigs in blankets
or slices of bubble and squeak
in sight. The chairs are decorated
with October snot and August
infection cream. Mariah Carey
is the Next Patient buzzer.
A red cheeked elf in Gruffalo PJs
is curled up on Santa’s knackered lap
whispering Christmas adventure
as he spots the tree in the corner
with the NHS bauble.

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They stand in rows looking around the room at the meats, the breads, cheeses, the paper plates with reindeer running, fizzy pop, odd jars, name tags, cellophane, lost glitter. They listen to voices making any sound they think they have to make. They wait patiently for hands to escape, to just be themselves.

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Three felt dinosaurs. A glass pig.
A glittery slice of pepperoni pizza.
A bodyless penguin. A vegan sausage roll.
A WWE table. A WWE ladder. A WWE chair.
A sprout. A sequin penguin. A pug.
A rainbow star. A non-talking Father Christmas.
A Robin. A jar of soy sauce. Frankenstein’s monster.
A red and white bauble with your name
written in the relief of silver, permanent ink.

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They just get on with it:
wearing trousers, sipping mint tea,
eating careless breakfasts,
colour coding spreadsheets,
nodding when spoken to,
not letting dirt sit on their shoes,
rearranging lanyards around their necks.
They just get on with it:
breathing, moving, blinking,
listening, getting out of bed.
They just. Get on with it.

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There’s a half eaten apple
in my trouser pocket
covered in spit from a mouth
I would let take a bite out of me.

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I want to be
able to ask questions
like you
with the confidence I will not
want to two-foot tackle
my own shin bones
when someone rolls their eyes
to what can’t be undone.

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Orange is a determined head.
Purple is slow and steady.
Blue is trying its best.
The other blue does not know the rules.
Red is on the floor torn in half.
Yellow does not want to die.
Green is searching for cheese.

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